Thursday, March 25, 2010

Westport Is a Wasteland But I Call It 'Home' Anyway

             Running along the choppy coast of Compo Beach, a child on the cusp of fifteen feels the chilled sand beneath his raw feet.
“Where’s the poetry in sand?” he asks the waves gasping for air.
The breeze was catching up, so without a reply from the waves, he sets off. The innocent-enough boy hid behind the famous Minuteman statue, at the moment depicting how America struck the British from behind, like a cold, or a Connecticut spring. It was late November, and yet there was another boy rollerblading inside the caged basketball court.
“A wheeled prisoner,” the boy whispered to the ironclad Minuteman.
Immediately, the smirk was wiped off the boy’s face though, as the statue tried to struggle against its encasing.
“I’m very sorry, sir, but can I ask you something?”
The statue said nothing verbally.
“How many children come and go, playing with hearts blown by Michelangelo?”
Again, the alloyed statue said nothing, not appearing to be interested in glass hearts or blossoming curiosity (even though I was).
“How many birds flee, from a poet’s feathered simile?” the kid asked, not knowing if he was on to something.
For the third time, the statue said nothing.
“Am I boring you? I’m sorry. I’m supposed to be meeting someone. That’s right. She’s really pretty too. ‘But isn’t beauty just a fleeting pheasant?’ Or is it ferret? I’m pretty sure it’s ferrets, but ferrets aren’t very poetic, don’t you think? Their eyes are all squinty, like an inside-joke or an ultimatum issued by Switzerland. Anyway, there she is!” There was a girl of sea foam porcelain that popped out of the choppy Westport waters, and beckoned to the bemused boy.
            “Swim with me,” she said. “I’ll be your muse, and you’ll be one of Odysseus’ crew without the wax in his ears or just captivated by my bare breasts.”
            “Ok,” replied the boy. “Just know that I’ll follow you, like Dante followed Virgil to shake Satan’s peppermint hands in Hell.”
            “But I’m a fish and this isn’t Hell. This is the Atlantic Ocean,” the sea goddess wittingly responded.
            “It’ll be our aqueous Hell then, and besides, I want to play with the symbolism in your scales.”
            And so it was that the ironclad Minuteman, the kid with the rollerblades, some discarded sea shells, that kid’s dad, and I all witnessed a young generic Westportian walk entranced into the shivering Atlantic Ocean like one of Odysseus’ crew captivated by the song of the Pied Piper; or maybe he was just high (or “inebriated” according to the papers).  Maybe he just had a problem that could only be solved after going to the Ben and Jerry’s on main street, ordering a large “Orange and Cream” ice cream (because his mom liked it), and throwing himself into it until he discovered the orange peels that gave up their innocence in order to please the endorphins coursing through his tongue. Maybe he just needed to blanket himself in beach sand even though it was forecasted to snow later; but then again he could still taste the spoiled cream in his mouth, the cream that went into his lungs instead of his now-upset stomach grumbling about hot cocoa. He was hungry, sad, “inebriated,” sensitively desensitized, judged, abandoned, discovered, betrayed, injured, broody, melancholic, redundant, dragged on, prosaic, poetic, artistic, redundant, chaste, resentful, confused, enlightened, and glad to finally see something open up to him that wasn’t broken up into stanzas.
         "But children come and go with hearts crafted by Michelangelo," sang the Westport waters contently as she savored the boy's creamy citron lungs. In retrospect, I should have applauded, or cried, whichever seems more appropriate.

A Response to a Long-Overdue Letter

Dear Justin,

You would probably write
something along the lines of,

“My thoughts were meant for couplets,
Not these iron circlets and moldy

Toilet seats.” My clothes reek of myrrh and syringes
And you’re an

Asshole.
I mean, who the fuck

Writes, “I can’t say anything about the breeze that wanders
like some invisible spirit beckoning me to play.” I may be

The convict,
but who does society truly

Value more?
The convict or the poet?

And by the way,
I don’t remember what that

Cross-dresser’s name was
as I was too busy noticing

How much he resembled
You in leopard pants and Uggs,

Strutting like they were stilettos.
Anyway, give my warmest regards

To Mom.
I love her very much.

         -   Julian


P.S. By the way Shakespeare, get the fuck out of my room.

I Write a Long-Overdue Letter


Dear Julian,

Your room still smells of prison. Your clothes are still lying around, with cigarette pock-marks scarring their youthful features. I still have one of your sweaters, the one with the cut-out smiley face on the right sleeve. The left sleeve looks gloomy in comparison. I probably shouldn’t mention anything regarding freedom, so I guess I can’t say anything about the breeze that wanders like some invisible spirit beckoning me to play outside or the weather that changes like one of those cross-dressing prostitutes you and I met after getting lost in London. I think one of them was called Jen, or John, I can’t remember. Don’t ask me why I’m in your room right now. Maybe it was the siren I heard outside of the mall the other day, or dad’s glistening gold watch that reminded mom of a missing handcuff. She quickly told dad to cover up the naked time piece.
Mom cries now every time she sees baby powder at the store. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s the whiteness, or maybe it’s just the powder. I’m guessing it’s because it kind of drips through your fingers, like satin, or the tearful clichés I’m trying to hold back because frankly, I’m fucking pissed like a urinal cake. When you come back, instead of smelling like hibiscus blossoms, or even ivory, you’ll come back reeking of damp confinement and sun flowers in October. I’m picturing you coming back looking like the letter ‘Z’ and being reminded of the line, “I dream of hospital beds / and you lying / in one.”
I hope you aren’t too upset with me for not visiting you, but I didn’t want to be reminded of Jen (or John) and have mom tell me to explain the politics in my poetry to kill time.


Your Fraternal Foe,
Justin

Thursday, March 4, 2010

A Tragedy In One Act (A haibun)

I woke up from a nap thinking about in medias res. It was 7:30 pm on a Tuesday and my room was sweltering with something in between radiation and sleep deprivation. My skin felt like the outer layer of garlic and my breath reeked of rotten banana peels. My left eye was swollen, possibly because I dreamt of the inclusion of the letter ‘T’ in the word “dream,” and I never have a good reaction when it comes to grammar. Anyway, so I wake up thinking about what happens to mornings when faced with the letter ‘U’, and seeing the spit stains on my pillow case resembling something of a twisted cloud of enzymes, salts, DNA, bacteria, and whatever it is that makes my breath taste like my toothbrush whenever I forget to douse it with Purell, I terrifyingly screamed hoping to scare off the possible mouth ulcer forming on the inside of my right cheek. I fell back to sleep briefly, as I sometimes do after being faced with long journeys to Oku and having to act serious in front of my dinner plate. I look at my open closet door and ask,
“Why is it chilly
For a window to think of
Existentialism?”
Suddenly a middle-aged fist starts banging on my door followed by the onslaught of, 
“Justin, wake up you lazy ass! You better not have fallen asleep at the computer again.”
“Is it wrong to sleep
When the eyes are heavy with
Syllables and mulch?” I responded.
            “21 years later, and I still regret teaching you metaphor. Anyway, get your ass out of bed. It’s dinner time and I made a nice ambrosia casserole, i.e. turkey and cucumber sandwiches with a fresh canned cheese garnish,” replied the fist.
Sometimes I wonder if Venus really is my mother, or just another stage name. 

Monday, February 15, 2010

Arizona


I dream of desert mounds, cacti, and pomegranates
Where I snore in hollow mauve orchestra pits
And wiggle in cool sand sheets
I dream of coyotes, snakes, and spiders that may kill me in my sleep.

I snore in hallow mauve orchestra pits
With eyes shut, I see gold-laced clay rooftops dancing just for me
I dream of coyotes, snakes, and spiders that may kill me in my sleep
The prickly cactus deity watches over me.

With eyes shut, I see gold-laced clay rooftops dancing just for me
The sun bakes nectared promises to lure my dry palette
The prickly cactus deity watches over me
Scarabs perform a dance to a Navajo’s appeal to blue.

The sun bakes nectared promises to lure my dry palette
My skin sings of pomegranates and rubied citrus flesh
Scarabs perform an interpretive dance to a Navajo’s appeal to blue
A heckling diamondback displays his scaly cicada rain stick.

My skin sings of pomegranate spectrums and lemoned flesh
My feet savor the taste of freshly caught desert sand fish
A diamondback displays his scaly cicada rain stick
Unknowingly wooing the desert with scales, fangs, and sensitivity.

My feet lament over the forgotten taste of sun-lathered sand-koi
A cactus pines for green garnished with daybreak
“Does wooing the desert require more than scales, fangs, and sensitivity?”
I write her a poem about urban Stop signs and laundromats.

A cactus pines for shades of vegetation and chilled starlight
A rock seeks some shade beneath a fruitful carcass
I read the desert my urban poem about stop signs and laundromats
Shedding her veil of impassioned hummingbirds and blooming Saguaro flowers.

Upon the return of the long-departed thunderclouds that bellow like timpanis
I am roused by the crunching of store-bought pomegranate seeds
And the wind’s rant reeking against my window forgetting that
I dreamt of desert mounds, cacti, and pomegranates that watched me in my sleep.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Trinity* (Renku Collaboration)



1945
A boy sits and ponders as
A boil explodes

Radiation burns scarring
Soft faces and bloody skies

Patches of sun burnt
violet massage
the tainted air

Come! All you disbelievers
Praise in the name of science!

Splitting the atom
yields the thunderous applause
of our fearful land.

Explosion defines the earth.
Flames destroy its surface.

An odd cloud appears.
Somehow, I know I will die
Or count my blessings

Atomic, verdant crater
Melted into a glass bowl.

Thunder howls in pain
Screaming out thousands
of bullets in one voice

Men in masks stare at a girl
as she excretes destruction

Planet-cracking force
shakes the scales of Gaea's skin;
Tectonic thunder.

Fumes of reaping metal cling
To the planet’s scarred flesh

Numbers chant in sync.
The ritual melody
Adds tones of despair

Binary screaming heralds
the gallop of four horsemen

They helplessly trot
through sands splashing specks
of glistening ash

Shards of green glass and crystal
Bond; Earth’s radiant smile.                                   

Gaea smiles no more.
Blood spattered on melted sand
Countdown to sorrow.

Drowning in a Hennessy
intoxicated sun

John and Blanche made love,
And drank chilled rum and Cola while,
“Don’t Fence Me In” played.

The atom's atomic dance
in a throng of thrashing force

Destruction is the
Weapon that fizzes
Fumes furiously

My skin tells me that it’s time.
One day this is how we'll die.

Festered barnacles
of irradiated flesh
pockmark her children.

Leaving them exposed to the
Poisons filling into their land

“Please take the children!”
Cries the father, as the lumps
Begin to surface.

Dark splotches on milk white skin
Sunspots mark the dusk of man.

Tarnished land feeds on
memorable sunken souls
lost in gloom disguise

Solvents now find themselves in
A realm without alchemy

Lead and Mercury,
Archaic elements now
Obsolete witchcraft.

Divine power unraveled
Behind masked western science

Director Kenneth Bainbridge,
Said, “Now we’re all dead”
To Oppenheimer.

Oppenheimer said, “Now I
Am Death, destroyer of worlds.”

And so the sky said,
“Bienvenue!” to the newest
Fungal Phoenix.

God missed the divine rainbow,
Trinity’s "bulbous fireball."

White sands melted green
Glass grows molten in the glow
of nuclear lamps

Light burns the atmosphere
illuminating radiance

Manhattan, borough
many boroughs into one
Secrets in shadow

A breathe of dusk protects
the camouflaged agenda

The Atomic Age
heralds the dawn in the shade
of a mushroom cloud

Pieces and particles prance
In the public’s pupils

Gotta get 'Gadget'
Secret names for omega
Hark! The end of days.

Twisted conclusion of a
demolished beginning

There goes the blue-sky
atmospheric deletion
or complete dud.

Red smoked gray’s beauty
as the mountains just watched

Flawless disturbances
abandon civil
beings in wreckage

Raising blemished questions
of broken moralities

The Allied gamblers
Toy with the apocalypse
The horseman called war

War it was. Shock waves rippling
Riffles through distant echoes

Verdant glass a scar
forever on the white sand
the new age cometh

An Impatient generation
yearns for new science to come.


* Note: This poem is about the July 16, 1945 Trinity nuclear test. This test resulted in creating the world's first atomic bomb.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Frosted Pearls and a Ginger Setting (Collaboration With Danielle Bond)

Sometimes I wonder
If her body traps sunlight,
Or rose cadences.

Who thinks of ginger at night,
Or the smell of indigo?

Do stars stop to think?
Or am I alone in thought
Over sunlit dreams?

Who whispers songs to pear juice,
But craves the taste of warm milk?

A baby’s weaned tongue
Wrote a haiku doused with flames,
As the milk just watched.

A couple stares at children.
The woman bears a secret.

Does anyone know
Where the snow in moonlight falls?
“Over the blankets.”

Silk sheets should summon courage,
Dust sparkles more than jewels.

Frogs bury secrets,
Spiders scare adolescents,
May cherry blossomed.

She seeks closure through citrus,
As the man stares at rose buds.

Hair sings in the rain.
Skin softens through silk.
Lips linger with lust.

A breeze freezes whispered thoughts
Spoken in angry silence.

Can dusk be a quilt
To a memory?
Forgotten in fabrics.

Birds only fly south when the north
Has transformed their world into ice.

Glossy vision of
Frosted pearls dancing
Onto dark pavement.

Sweet tastes pleasure the tongue, tease
The stomach and torment the soul.

Shadows speak softly
To selected strangers
And slivers of the sky.

The man who sees through black stone
Can read the minds of white demons.

The earth paints people
Onto its surface, weaves
Footprints into its core.





*This poem was written in the Renku form (18 alternating links consisting of a 5/7/5 stanza followed by a 7/7 stanza).