Thursday, March 25, 2010

Westport Is a Wasteland But I Call It 'Home' Anyway

             Running along the choppy coast of Compo Beach, a child on the cusp of fifteen feels the chilled sand beneath his raw feet.
“Where’s the poetry in sand?” he asks the waves gasping for air.
The breeze was catching up, so without a reply from the waves, he sets off. The innocent-enough boy hid behind the famous Minuteman statue, at the moment depicting how America struck the British from behind, like a cold, or a Connecticut spring. It was late November, and yet there was another boy rollerblading inside the caged basketball court.
“A wheeled prisoner,” the boy whispered to the ironclad Minuteman.
Immediately, the smirk was wiped off the boy’s face though, as the statue tried to struggle against its encasing.
“I’m very sorry, sir, but can I ask you something?”
The statue said nothing verbally.
“How many children come and go, playing with hearts blown by Michelangelo?”
Again, the alloyed statue said nothing, not appearing to be interested in glass hearts or blossoming curiosity (even though I was).
“How many birds flee, from a poet’s feathered simile?” the kid asked, not knowing if he was on to something.
For the third time, the statue said nothing.
“Am I boring you? I’m sorry. I’m supposed to be meeting someone. That’s right. She’s really pretty too. ‘But isn’t beauty just a fleeting pheasant?’ Or is it ferret? I’m pretty sure it’s ferrets, but ferrets aren’t very poetic, don’t you think? Their eyes are all squinty, like an inside-joke or an ultimatum issued by Switzerland. Anyway, there she is!” There was a girl of sea foam porcelain that popped out of the choppy Westport waters, and beckoned to the bemused boy.
            “Swim with me,” she said. “I’ll be your muse, and you’ll be one of Odysseus’ crew without the wax in his ears or just captivated by my bare breasts.”
            “Ok,” replied the boy. “Just know that I’ll follow you, like Dante followed Virgil to shake Satan’s peppermint hands in Hell.”
            “But I’m a fish and this isn’t Hell. This is the Atlantic Ocean,” the sea goddess wittingly responded.
            “It’ll be our aqueous Hell then, and besides, I want to play with the symbolism in your scales.”
            And so it was that the ironclad Minuteman, the kid with the rollerblades, some discarded sea shells, that kid’s dad, and I all witnessed a young generic Westportian walk entranced into the shivering Atlantic Ocean like one of Odysseus’ crew captivated by the song of the Pied Piper; or maybe he was just high (or “inebriated” according to the papers).  Maybe he just had a problem that could only be solved after going to the Ben and Jerry’s on main street, ordering a large “Orange and Cream” ice cream (because his mom liked it), and throwing himself into it until he discovered the orange peels that gave up their innocence in order to please the endorphins coursing through his tongue. Maybe he just needed to blanket himself in beach sand even though it was forecasted to snow later; but then again he could still taste the spoiled cream in his mouth, the cream that went into his lungs instead of his now-upset stomach grumbling about hot cocoa. He was hungry, sad, “inebriated,” sensitively desensitized, judged, abandoned, discovered, betrayed, injured, broody, melancholic, redundant, dragged on, prosaic, poetic, artistic, redundant, chaste, resentful, confused, enlightened, and glad to finally see something open up to him that wasn’t broken up into stanzas.
         "But children come and go with hearts crafted by Michelangelo," sang the Westport waters contently as she savored the boy's creamy citron lungs. In retrospect, I should have applauded, or cried, whichever seems more appropriate.

A Response to a Long-Overdue Letter

Dear Justin,

You would probably write
something along the lines of,

“My thoughts were meant for couplets,
Not these iron circlets and moldy

Toilet seats.” My clothes reek of myrrh and syringes
And you’re an

Asshole.
I mean, who the fuck

Writes, “I can’t say anything about the breeze that wanders
like some invisible spirit beckoning me to play.” I may be

The convict,
but who does society truly

Value more?
The convict or the poet?

And by the way,
I don’t remember what that

Cross-dresser’s name was
as I was too busy noticing

How much he resembled
You in leopard pants and Uggs,

Strutting like they were stilettos.
Anyway, give my warmest regards

To Mom.
I love her very much.

         -   Julian


P.S. By the way Shakespeare, get the fuck out of my room.

I Write a Long-Overdue Letter


Dear Julian,

Your room still smells of prison. Your clothes are still lying around, with cigarette pock-marks scarring their youthful features. I still have one of your sweaters, the one with the cut-out smiley face on the right sleeve. The left sleeve looks gloomy in comparison. I probably shouldn’t mention anything regarding freedom, so I guess I can’t say anything about the breeze that wanders like some invisible spirit beckoning me to play outside or the weather that changes like one of those cross-dressing prostitutes you and I met after getting lost in London. I think one of them was called Jen, or John, I can’t remember. Don’t ask me why I’m in your room right now. Maybe it was the siren I heard outside of the mall the other day, or dad’s glistening gold watch that reminded mom of a missing handcuff. She quickly told dad to cover up the naked time piece.
Mom cries now every time she sees baby powder at the store. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s the whiteness, or maybe it’s just the powder. I’m guessing it’s because it kind of drips through your fingers, like satin, or the tearful clichés I’m trying to hold back because frankly, I’m fucking pissed like a urinal cake. When you come back, instead of smelling like hibiscus blossoms, or even ivory, you’ll come back reeking of damp confinement and sun flowers in October. I’m picturing you coming back looking like the letter ‘Z’ and being reminded of the line, “I dream of hospital beds / and you lying / in one.”
I hope you aren’t too upset with me for not visiting you, but I didn’t want to be reminded of Jen (or John) and have mom tell me to explain the politics in my poetry to kill time.


Your Fraternal Foe,
Justin

Thursday, March 4, 2010

A Tragedy In One Act (A haibun)

I woke up from a nap thinking about in medias res. It was 7:30 pm on a Tuesday and my room was sweltering with something in between radiation and sleep deprivation. My skin felt like the outer layer of garlic and my breath reeked of rotten banana peels. My left eye was swollen, possibly because I dreamt of the inclusion of the letter ‘T’ in the word “dream,” and I never have a good reaction when it comes to grammar. Anyway, so I wake up thinking about what happens to mornings when faced with the letter ‘U’, and seeing the spit stains on my pillow case resembling something of a twisted cloud of enzymes, salts, DNA, bacteria, and whatever it is that makes my breath taste like my toothbrush whenever I forget to douse it with Purell, I terrifyingly screamed hoping to scare off the possible mouth ulcer forming on the inside of my right cheek. I fell back to sleep briefly, as I sometimes do after being faced with long journeys to Oku and having to act serious in front of my dinner plate. I look at my open closet door and ask,
“Why is it chilly
For a window to think of
Existentialism?”
Suddenly a middle-aged fist starts banging on my door followed by the onslaught of, 
“Justin, wake up you lazy ass! You better not have fallen asleep at the computer again.”
“Is it wrong to sleep
When the eyes are heavy with
Syllables and mulch?” I responded.
            “21 years later, and I still regret teaching you metaphor. Anyway, get your ass out of bed. It’s dinner time and I made a nice ambrosia casserole, i.e. turkey and cucumber sandwiches with a fresh canned cheese garnish,” replied the fist.
Sometimes I wonder if Venus really is my mother, or just another stage name.